personal shit

For the record i never asked you to change.

I never asked you to be anything other than who you are and since I understand that you can never be what i want, i decided to end things with you

but you didnt want to let go.

i have this fear that you will tell other people, that you will turn the tables on me and tell other people that i forced you to change. that i was being clingy and needy and i wanted you to be something you’re not.

for the record, i never said anything like that. which is why i would rather that we go our own separate ways because it’s easier than forcing ourselves to be something we’re not.

also, do not tell your friends that i forbade you from seeing them or from playing games. i have the screenshots to prove it.

i never wanted you to be anything else other than yourself but when yourself just wasn’t enough for me, i just had to let you go. it’s better than hurting you and making a vaudeville act out of you.

and recently everything seems different again. it’s like you’re not you.

the messages were overly clingy. very unlike you to message me several times in a day.

i guess if you could read this you would probably say “that’s what you wanted, right?”

no. it’s not.

i want you to be you

i want you to be free to like what you like

i wanted to give you that freedom, but you chose to stay with me

if anything’s forcing anything else, you’re just forcing yourself.

i pity you. dearly.


PRODUCT REVIEW: Yogurt Hotdogs

I didn’t really think it was possible before for yogurt and meat to exist in the same sentence except for when it is being used as a dip (and from what I remember yogurt is used as a dressing and a dip for some flatbreads but my food history is sketchy, so don’t trust me.) but when I saw the Yogurt Hotdog, being a fan of both yogurt and hotdogs, I immediately bought it wanting to give it a try since I am after trying new things, especially food items I’ve never eaten before.

Okay, I admit it. I jumped at the notion of buying it because I saw it was ‘healthy’ and thought it a better alternative to the usual hotdog, which is in a way correct since it is made with chicken meat instead of red meat and has 25% less fat, zero trans fat and no preservatives (I’m a bit doubtful about this). I didn’t buy it for health reasons because I am not a health junkie nor do I believe that it has the ability to alleviate health problems brought about by food, rather, I bought it because it’s very intriguing and catchy to the eyes.

Now for the review. But first, here’s a picture you guys can ‘picture’ it better.


Taste wise it was pretty sour, but what did I expect? Yogurt is sour unless it’s flavored then it only becomes mildly sour. Actually while I was eating it I wasn’t quite sure what it tasted like, if it was salty or sour (maybe both?). It’s pretty interesting, the first three bites but eat three more and you’re bound to have a sour yogurt overload that’ll make you want to eat it with ketchup or some dip of some sort (I highly recommend Cheez Whiz with this).

Texture wise it did look and feel like a veal sausage, the ones that I used to eat at hotel buffets. It was that white and that smooth-looking but of course, since veal is fattier than chicken, it naturally is more flavorful.

Overall, I would recommend this if you’re the health nut type but beware the sour taste. It won’t taste like your ordinary hotdog EVEN if you fry it. Regardless of cooking method the texture and taste stay the same. Don’t eat more than three at a time and you’ll actually get to appreciate it

(ps. i stupidly ignored the serving size. )